When A Gay Man Loves Part 17

Author's Note:

Yeah. Update na. Karakaraka. So, I wanted to explain some things. May nagsabi po kasi na the last chapter, has some scene that are alike sa isang story sa Wattpad. I've already read that story, yung Kahit Di Na Malaman. Before ko pa mabasa yung story na yun, nagawa ko na po yung chapter na yun, which was chapter 16. I'm afraid that time na baka nga isipin niyo na I just copied the idea from that story. Pero na-draft ko na kasi siya before ko pa nabasa yung story kaya hindi ko na in-edit. Anyways, okay lang.  At least someone reacted. Kung sino man po yung Anon na nagcomment, thank you. And ayan, I already explained my side :) Walang galitan ha?

So, here's Part 17. Few chapters away bago mag end. Malapit na. And may naka prepare na din akong bago. Wala pa kong title eh.

Ano ba yan! Ang daldal ko. HAHA! Eto na talaga, thank you dun sa unang APAT na nag comment :) Mention? Eto oh : ziero13, Dalawang Anon, and Jaycee Mejica. Kaloka yung comment nila kaya eto, update na agad :)

Enjoy. This chapter was a bit short. 

Part Seventeen
Matthew
                       
       "Pare, make sure na pupunta ka. Kokonyatan kita pag di ka pumunta.." sabi ni Crix over the phone


            "Oo na pre.. Sige na. Baba ko na. Bye." ayan. What should I wear?!


            *TING!*


            Alam ko na..


Brian

       "Girls! What should I wear?!" bulyaw ko sa mga babaitang 'to. Kaines. Ayaw akong tulungan?!


            "Basta kami, kukumpletuhin namin yung cast ng Sailor Moon.. Ako si Sailor Moon!" sabi ni Naevia


           
            "Ako si Sailor Venus!" si Bea


            At oo.. Sineryoso nila.. Pati si Sailor Mars, Sailor Jupiter, Sailor Neptune, Sailor Uranus, Sailor Mercury, Sailor Saturn, nyeta. Si Tuxedo Mask nalang kaya ako?



(*A/N* Baka may nagtataka po kung sino si Sailor Uranus at Neptune. Meron po niyan. Chiboli (tomboy) pa nga po sila eh. Sayang ganda nila. HAHA! Lumabas sila sa mga lasts episodes ng Sailor Moon. Shet. Adik ako dun.)

           
            "Mag Tuxedo Mask nalang kaya ako?!" suggestion ko sa kanila


            "Hep hep hep! No way.." si Naevia


            "May Sailor Pluto pa kaya! Sexy yun tsaka maganda!" si Bea



            "I'll dress up like a flirt?! Eh sa pagkakaalam ko siya ang may pinaka maikling skirt sa lahat ng Sailor Chuchu! Ako nalang si Luna! Okaya si Serenity!" sabi ko. As if?!


           
            "We'll help you.. Kaming bahala..." si Bea



            "Okay girls! Hands in!" sigaw ni Naevia. Lapit naman yung walong ababe and they formed a circle


            "Sing 'ah' on three.. 1... 2... 3..." si Naevia


           
            "Ahhhhhhhhhh!" shet.


            "Anong kala niyo?! Barden Bellas kayo?!" sigaw ko sa kanila.



            "Pagbigyan na! Yan ang powers namin.. Ready girls! In three... two... one... Attack!" sigaw ni Bea



            Attack. This means war. Sumugod sila sakin, literal. Feeling ko nasa barbie.com ako. Barbie Dress-Up



Matthew


       Yeah. Party night. This was fucking great.Oo, pumayag na nga akong umattend, tapos papakantahin pa ako?! Saya. Shets.



            "Shiz.. Pare.. Pwede na tayong gumawa ng remake ng Sailor Moon.. Let's see later.. Kumpleto cast ng Sailor Moon mamaya sa party! Hahaha!" sige tawa pa. good luck kung maka tawa ka mamaya sa costume mong yan Crix.



            Yeah. Sailor Moon. Ako si Tuxedo Mask for this night. Ayos na 'to. Basta may takip mukha.



            Crix and I arrived at the venue. Sinundo niya talaga ako to make sure na pupunta ako. Actually, siya dapat si Tuxedo Mask. I planned na mag Ghost Rider, pero nakipag palit ako. Umayaw siya, pero tinakot ko siya na di ako pupunta. Kaya ayun, nakipagpalit. Evil



            "Guys, enjoy the night. May open bar tayo jan 'til morning. As in literal na morning. Mga 6am? Then pwede mag swimming when the clock strikes 12. And beofre that, we'll award the Best in Cosplay Attire. I've seen some, later the winner will be announced.. So, let's start the party!" hiyawan naman lahat ng tao.



            Kumuha lang ako ng isang glass ng tequilla. Emo. I decided to stay sa terrace. Medyo malayo 'to ng konti dun sa center ng clubhouse. Konti lang napupunta dito. Tago kasi.



            I played songs through my phone. When I put my earphones on, parang nasa ibang dimension ako. I made a playlist kung saan puro senti na kanta lang yung nandun. "Blends in when you're sad" yung pangalan ng playlist ko.


            Now playing: When I Was Your Man-Bruno Mars


            Shet. Nagbe blend na sa emotions ko, pati pa sa situation ko.


            I can't imagine those things. Ako, pinalayo ngfamily ni Brian sa kanya para makaalala ulit siya? Napaka imposible. I've been with him very hour, every minute, every second. Lalo na nung na ospital siya because of that fuckin' Edward.



            Bitter. Nakakainis na nakakalungkot kasi.


            From a distance, I can see him dancing with another man.



            I can see him that he's being happy in the arm of another man.



            I hope he's holding me here.


            When I was his man, I never felt this feeling..




            "Sir.. " kalabit sakin ng isang waiter.



            "Ah.. Bakit?" sabay tanggal ko ng earphones ko.



            "Pinapatawag po kayo ni Sir Crix.. Kayo na po kakanta.." sabi nung inutusan ni Crix



            "Sige.. Susunod na ako.."


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            "Okay now guys! Please take your seats first... I'll announce the winner for the Best in Cosplay Attire.." sabi ni Crix while I was prepairing the keyboard for my performance.



            "So, yeah. Thank you. I've been roaming around a while ago. I've seen some girls and guys that has those beautiful and nice attires. But there was this someone that attracted me most, sorry Babe, ang ganda kasi niya ngayon, pero don't worry.. I love you.. So anyways, here he is.. "



            HE?! Pero BEAUTIFUL?! Nyeta ha. Ang gulo.



            "May I call on Sailor Pluto.." sabi niya.



            Shiz.



            "So eto si Sailor Pluto. In real life, he's..."



            Brian Anthony Lacuna Nicholls.



            "Brian Anthony Lacuna Nicholls.."


           
            Gosh. I was stunned! He's so beautiful! Kuhang kuha niya si Sailor Pluto!



            Very long black hair with some shade of dark green, the gloves that extended up to his elbows, that super short skirt, the Sailor's blouse, the killer boots, and his staff.

(A/N: Left to Right: Sailor Uranus, Neptune, Tuxedo Mask, Venus, Mars, Moon, Mercury, Chibi, Jupiter, Pluto, Saturn)


            "You'll receive your prize later Sailor Pluto.. Thank you.." sabi ni Crix kay Brian.



            Sana ako nalang yung prize...



            "And now, here's Tuxedo Mask to serenade us for a while, para naman pumirmi yung mga kaluluwa natin saglit.. you may have a slow dance guys, grab your partners." and after that, he cued me to start.



            I started to play the keyboard.
            Teenage Dream-Katy Perry (Acoustic Version)

            (*A/N*: So, there's Darren Cris from Glee. Panuorin niyo sa Youtube. Jan ko binase yung pagkanta ni Matthew)


            You think I'm pretty
            Without any make up on
            You think I'm funny
            When I tell the punchline wrong
            I know you get me,
            So I let my walls come down..
            Down..

            Before you met me
            I was a wreck but things were kind of heavy
            You brought me to life
            Now every February
            You'll be my Valentine
            Valentine

            Brian, you brought me to life..

            Let's go all the way tonight
            No regrets, just love
            We can dance until we die
            You and I, we'll be young forever

            Sana tayo nalang kasi... Tayo nalang...

            You make me
            Feel like I'm living a teenage dream
            The way you turn me on I can't sleep
            Let's run away and don't ever look back,
            Don't ever look back
           
            My heart stops when you look at me, just one touch
            Now baby I believe, this is real
            So take the chance and don't ever look back
            Don't ever look back

            Miss na miss na kita... 

            We drove to Cali
            And got drunk on the beach
            Got a motel and
            Built it forth out of sheets
            I finally found you
            My missing puzzle piece
            I'm complete

           You made me complete... Parang Centrum lang... Kinumpleto mo ang buhay ko...

            Let's go all the way tonight
            No regrets, just love
            We can dance until we die
            You and I, we'll be young forever

            You make me
            Feel like I'm living a teenage dream
            The way you turn me on I can't sleep
            Let's run away and don't ever look back,
            Don't ever look back
           
            My heart stops when you look at me, just one touch
            Now baby I believe, this is real
            So take the chance and don't ever look back
            Don't ever look back

            I might get your heart racing
            In my skin tight jeans
            Be your teenage dream tonight

            Let you put your hands on me
            In my skin tight jeans
            Be your teenage dream tonight

           
            Shit. I started crying. Sino ba naman hindi iiyak?! Acoustic kantahin mo tapos yung nakikita mo yung taong mahal mo kasayaw yung mortal enemy mo?! Shit lang talaga. I wish I am the one he's dancing with.


            "Okay ka lang?" tapik ni Crix sakin


            "I'm fine.. Aalis na ako.. Happy Birthday.." sabi ko sabay tayo


            "San ka pupunta dude?" si Crix


            "I'll be heading to America tomorrow morning.. dun na ako magaaral.. Pre Harvard yun! Sosyal!" pagkukunwari kong masaya. Pero sa totoo, ayaw ko.


            "If it's about Brian, I'll talk to him.. Please.. Baka mamaya nagdadalos dalos ka lang.. Hintayin mo ko, puntahan ko siya.." sabi ni Crix sabaya kmang aalis.


            "Wag na Pre.. Okay na ko.. Move on lang 'to. Hehe. In just a week, makakahanap naman agad ako dun ng babae.. Sige na pre.. Wag mo na siyang kausapin, baka magulo ko lang siya.. Wag mo an ipaalam sa iba 'to.. Please pare.."


            "Osige pare.. Skype nalang ha.. Ingat dun.." si Crix sabay yakap sakin.


            "Salamat Pre.. Happy Birthday ulet.."


            "Tadu ka pare. Ang ganda ng regalo mo sakin.." medyo nangingilid na yung luha namin.
           

            "Sorry naman. Babawi ako sa debut mo.. At last thing pre, favor.. Paki bigay 'to kay Brian.." sabya abot ng isang bagay na nakalagay sa envelope.


            "Oo na.. Sige na.. Umuwi ka na nga.. "


           Hindi ko alam na ganito magiging kabnilis ang desisyon ko. Pero wala akong magagawa...



           Mukhang sila na ni Edward eh...



           'Til we meet again Brian, I love you...

Brian

       "Sabi ko na nga ba.. Tatalbugan mo kami.. " si Naevia


            "Teka nga.. Para kang Giraffe jan.. Kanina ka pa stretch ng stretch ng leeg mo. Sino ba hinahanap mo?!" si Bea. Tae naman kasi. Hindi ko parin nakikita si Matthew. Don't tell me hindi siya pumunta sa birthday ng bestfriend niya?!


           
            "Ahh.. Wala.." sagot ko.



            "Kayo na ba ni Edward?" diretsong tanong ni Bea



            "Ha? Hindi ka--"


            "Oo.." shet. Edward.



            "Ahh.. Ehh.. Oo.." naki ride nalang ako. I think dun din naman kami pupunta ni Edward


            "Shet Bes! Kelan pa?!" si Naevia


            "Ka-- Ka-- Kanina lang.. Nung sumasayaw kami.. Oo.. Nung sumasayaw kami.."sabi ko


            "Congrats." Matamlay na bati nung dalawa.


            "Uhm, Crix, sino ba yung kumanta kanina?" tanong ko kay Crix..


            "Ah.. Si Tuxedo Mask.. Ayaw niyang ipasabi pangalan niya eh.. Baka hanapin daw siya sa Facebook.. HAHA!" sabay tawa nila ng malakas. Haha. Funneh.


            "Erkey.."


            Miss ko na si Matthew..

           Ang saya saya ko kanina nung naka sama ko siya sa stage, kahit hindi kami nagkausap, okay na.




            Lalo na nung may kasayaw ako, tinitignan niya ako. Gusto ko din sana siyang isayaw kanina. Kaso bigla siyang nawala :(



           Anong nagyari satin Matthew?

Eterna: Kabanata 5

Eterna

By: Heara

Hello!!!

Ahahah! Yay Kabanata 5 na tayo! Umaasenso! Yiee! So, I have a bad news and good news with you guys. Good news muna.

The good news is… I have finished the draft of the whole story yaaaay! Decided na ako! Bwahaha! And the bad news is… This story will not take very long maybe 20 chapters are super madami na! Hahaha!

So lets discuss about the previous chapter. Can you guess who my favorite character is?

Those who guessed Ashton were right! BOOOOOOOO to those who answered Zepiroth hahah!

Anyhow and anyway this chapter will be the most boring of all the boring chapters that I have write.  Because buryong na buryong ako habang sinusulat to! Walang net sa bahay! Grr.

Pasensya na kung late! AHAHA! Atsaka magpapaabiso ako na medyo malalate ako ng posting by 1 to 3 days sa usual day ko sa pagpopost. Ang hirap ng walang internet sa bahay HUHUHUUH. THIS SUCKS YOU KNOW.  Anyway… Thanks for reading this story! Please keep the reviews coming they inspire me the most! J

Bye!

LETS GO TEAM ASHTON! YAY.

When A Gay Man Loves Part 16

Part Sixteen
Brian


       "What?! Duet?! Kakanta?!" sabi ko kay Matthew


            "Hindi.. Siguro sasayaw.. Sasayaw pero duet..." biro in Matthew



            "Damn. I'm dead serious! I don't know how to sing!" Oo. Seyoso. Hindi ako marunong kumanta.



            "Huweh? Bahay Kubo hindi mo alam?"


            "Of course I kno--- Oo Bahay Kubo! Eh hindi naman Bahay Kubo kakantahin natin. Unchained Melody! Eh sa Glee ko nga lang napakinggan yan!" Oo na.. I do want to do the performance, kaso, hindi talaga ako marunong!



            "Then we'll practice!"


            "Oka---" he cut me off.



            "Here's my flash disk. Nandyan yung kanta. Yung mismong music and yung lyrics, nasa isang file. Hanapin mo nalang then kopyahin mo. I mean, transfer it to your laptop..." explanation niya. Hanep! Yan ba ang practice?!



            "Per---" ayan nanaman



            "No but's and don'ts. We'll do it..."



            "Teka lang naman! Pwede bang i-interpret nalang natin?! I can't really sing!"



            "Well, pwede. Basta. I-practice parin natin yung song..."



            "Okay..."


            "Sa Monday na pala yung performance natin.. Sige. Una na ko." then umalis na siya...



            Bakit ganun yun? Ang cold niya..



            Baka naman nahihiya..



            Nahihiya? Bakit naman?



            Diba umamin nga siya sayo?



            Bakit pa siya mahihiya.. Wala namang dapat ikahiya..


            Duh! Of course Mahihiya yan! Umamin siya sa isang tao na wala naman gusto sakanya!



            Sabagay..

Edward
           

       "Okay everyone.. Please take your seats.. We'll start the class now.." sabi ni Prof. Baklayon. Well, his surname fits him. Bakala naman talaga siya.



            If it wasn't for Brian, wala siguro ako dito sa class nila sa Literature. Sinabi niya kasi sakin na ngayon yung recital NILA. Oo, NILA. NILA ni Matthew. Ayoko naman talaga kasi dapat kasi nandito si Matthew. Alam naman nating lahat na galit sakin yun. Tae naman kasi ako. At ano ba 'to?! Para namang sinasadya ni Brian na mangasar. Ininvite pa talaga ako. Nakakapagselos.


           
            "Okay.. Hmmm.. There'll be five students.. I mean six.. Pair kasi yung isa. And this will be the boys' day..." Prof. Baklasiya este Baklayon said.



            "So for the first presentor.. Mr. Aldover, Tophie." pagpapatuloy pa ni Baklayon. Hindi na ko masyadong nakinig sa recital niya. Boring naman kasi ng kanya eh... 10 Quotations or Famous Lines ni Julius Caeser. That's not my thing.



            Ooooooookkkkkkkkaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyy... I'm totally bored..



            Para akong dead kid na nanunuod sa mga nagpepresent. Pumipikit pikit na yung mata ko sa sobrang nakakanatok nilang performance. Damn. Ang tagal ni Brian. I mean, nila Brian.



            Beep. Beep.



            One Message Received:
            Brian <3

            Hoy mister.. Wag kang tutulog tulog jan.. :) Watch me ;)



            Ugh.. That message made me alive.


           
            "And for our last performance, Mr. Buenaventura, Carl Matthew and Mr. Nicholls, Brian Anthony... please dim the lights.." sabi ni Baklayon. Sila na pala ang last na magpepresent.



            "Good morning everyone.. We're here to present the Unchained Melody.. " pagsisimula ni Matthew. Halatang kabado yung dalawa



            "So, since hindi kami marunong kumanta pareho, we decided na i-interpret ang kanta in a different way.." dagdag pa ni Brian.



            Damn. Ito na pala yung ipapanood sakin. Isang video clip na may kinalaman dun sa kanta. Nawalan na ko ng gana manood. Pansin ko din, pati yung mga kaklase nila.



            "Thank you for that Misters.. Good job.." sabi ni Baklayon



            "AKALA NAMIN KAKANTA SILA?! DIBA SIR DUET YUN?" may sumigaw na random girl. Haha! Pero may point siya.


           
            "DAPAT PAKANTAHIN YAN..." may humirit pa..



            "So, guys, you heard them.. Can you please sing it for us?" yeah you're right Mr. Baklayon. Buti naisip niya yun.



            "Uhmm.. Ah. Eh.-- Siirr-- Kasi---" si Brian



            "You guys will sing it for us, or I'll give you a grade of 40 out of 100 for this recitation? Remember, recitation ay mas mataas pa kesa sa exams niyo.." now. They really need to sing. Kahit maperfect pa kasi nila lahat ng quizzes, exams, seatworks, projects, wala parin yang panama sa percentage ng recitation.



            "We'll sing.." sabi ni Matthew. Tignan natin galing mo. Bwahahahahahhaha!


            Nilapitan ni Matthew yung operator. He handed his flash disk.



            Brian looked tensed. I gave him a two thumbs up sign para naman lumakas yung loob niya. He smiled a bit, pero hindi natanggal yung kaba..



Matthew

            (**A/N** Please go to Youtube. Search niyo yung Unchained Melody na Glee Version. Yung full soundtrack ah? Para damang dama nating lahat :D )

            Matthew:
            Oh my love, my darling
            I've hungered for your touch
            A long lonely time


                        Yeah right. This song really explains my feelings for Brian.


            Brian:
            And time goes by so slowly
            And time can do so much,
            Are you still mine?
                       
                        I'm still yours Brian.. I'm still yours.. HAHA!



            Matthew:
            I need your love,
            I need your love
            God speed your love to me.


                        Kaya mo 'to Matthew.. I opened my I eyes. Pero wala akong makita sa audience. Nakatutok kasi yung spotlight samin. I stepped forward para ipakita kay Brian na confident akong kumanta.




            Both:
            Lonely rivers flow to the sea, to the sea,
            To the open arms of the sea, yeah!
            Lonely rivers sigh "wait for me, wait for me"
            I'll be coming home,
            Wait for me.

           
                        I'll wait for you...


            Brian:
            Oh my love, my darling

            Matthew:
            I've hungered,


            Brian:
            Hungered for your touch
           
            Both:
            A long lonely time,
            And time goes by so slowly
            And time can do so much,

            Matthew:
            Are you still mine?
            I need your love, I...
                       

                        Pero bago pa namin matapos ang kanta, biglang bumukas yung pinto ng auditorium. Hindi ko naman nakit kung sino yung lumabas o pumasok. Pero etong si Brian, tumakbo palabas. Tinapos ko mag-isa yung kanta.. With matching teary eyes pa. Putcha.



            *clap clap clap clap clap*


            "You did well Mr. Buenaventura.. Kahit na iniwan ka ng kasama mo na tapusin dapat yung kanta. I'll talk to the both of you later.. With the Dean. Okay. Class dismissed.."



            Agad agad, lumabas na ako. Hindi ko na kinuha yung bag ko. Babalikan ko nalang.



            Nakalabas ako ng mabilis bago pa makalabas lahat ng mga kaklase ko..



            Awww...



            This is bullshit.



            Edward. Brian. Hugging. Tightly. In. Front. Of. ME.


            Gago. Ngumisi pa ng nakakaloko si Edward sakin. Siya kasi yung nakaharap na part sakin. Ang sakit. Di ko kaya.



            Hindi pa ba nadala si Brian sa lalaking yun?! He was hurt by that freaking man. Tapos ako 'tong kasama niya ngayon, iiwan iwan niya para dun sa lalaking yun?! DAMN.



            I ran pabalik sa loob ng auditorium. Kinuha yung bag ko tapos dun ako lumabas sa kabilang pinto. Buti nalnag kasabay ko yung iba kong kaibigan palabas.



            "Wow. Matt. Di mo sinasabi marunong ka palang kumanta!" si Crix yun.


            "Tol, una muna ako.. punta pa ko kay Baklayon tsaka sa Dean eh.."



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            "So will you accept the offer Mr. Buenaventura?" tanong sakin ni Baklayon.


            Hindi po yan indecent proposal. Haha! May respeto pa naman ako sa mga prof ko 'no.



            Ganito kasi. Our Prof., Mr. Baklayon, and our Dean, decided na ipang laban ako sa National Contest. Singing contest. Maganda daw kasi yung performance namin kanina. With feelings ika nga.



            Pinagisipan ko. Ayaw ko na gusto ko.



            Gusto kasi may chance na manalo. And I'll be honored to represent my school. May dagdag grade pa kahit hindi manalo.



            Ayaw kasi, si Brian. Iniiwasan ko si Brian. They're palnning na kaming dalawa ang ipanglaban. Pero no choice. I have to decide right now.



            "Uhm.. Sir, Dean, hindi ko po tatanggapin.." sabi ko sa dalawa. Medyo nadisappoint ko yata sila



            "Why? I mean, we respect your decision. Pero sayang kasi.. We have a chance to win in that competition..." sabi ni Prof.



            "Personal reasons Sir.. Tsaka Sir, hindi ko po kasi talaga forte ang pag kanta..." sabi ko sa kanila. Last choice nila, si Brian.



            "Okay then. Mr. Nicholls will be our last chance... Thank you Mr. Buenaventura.. You may leave now.." sabi nung Dean sakin. Agad naman akong lumabas. I was planning na umuwi nalang. Panget ang araw ko.



            "Huy Matthew. Pinatawag daw ako? Sorry pala kani----" I cut him off. Alam ko naman na sasabihin niya.



            "Oo.. Pinapatawag ka ni Dean. Una na ko." and I rushed my way out. Out of this school. Magpapahinga nalang ako. Si Crix na bahala okaya si Karl.

            That was a really cold one.

Brian

       Competition day na. Oo. I accepted their offer. Kelangan ko din kasi ng co-cullicular activities.



            The event was held here in Kalibo. So may moment kami na Bora. Haha! And by meaning na kami, kasama si Kuya Walter and Ate Sarah. Allowed kasi ako na magsama ng atleaast 5 persons. Kung may isasama naman akong tatlo sa tropa, baka magtampo yung iba. Ayaw naman ni Matthew. Kaya eto, Ako, Ate, Kuya, Si Prof at Dean lang ang kasama ko. Parang magkakatropa muna turingan namin dito. Lahat sila, coach ko.



            I had a 10 day practice, and at the same time, stay here in Kalibo. And ngayon nga, competition day na. 4th ako sa performers. Then the 3rd one started to sing.



            "Remember Brian, enjoy this competition.. Manalo man o matalo, that's okay. At least we participated.." paalala ni Dean.



            "Opo Dean.." sagot ko naman. Kabado nga devah?



            "Tandaan mo lahat ng prinactice natin. Wag kabahan. Be confident." sabi pa ni Sir. Eh tutche. Lalo akong kinabahan eh.


           
            "That was great! Thank you contestant number 3 for that performance.. Please welcome our contestant number 4! Mr. Brian Anthony Nicholls!" Rinig ko yung palakpakan ng tao mula dito sa backstage pagkatapos akong tawagin nung emcee.


            Nagsimula nang tumugtog.

            Kiss today goodbye,
            The sweetness and the sorrow.
            Wish me luck, the same to you.
            But I can't regret
            What I did for love, what I did for love.

            What I Did For Love. Actually, hindi naman talaga dapat ito yung kakantahin ko. When You Believe dapat eh. But, hindi ko ma-feel yung kanta kanina while I'm practicing. I only sing from my heart. Pero ayaw ng puso ko sa kantang yun.

            I chose another song that suits what I feel right now. At eto. I decided na ito nalang ang kantahin, without my coach's permission. 

            I stepped forward as I regained my confidence. Slowly opened my eyes. I saw my Prof and Dean, at the same time, my siblings, giving me the what-are-you-doing look in their eyes. I don't care. I know better. Alam kong mas may chance ako sa kantang 'to.

            Look my eyes are dry.
            The gift was ours to borrow.
            It's as if we always knew,
            And I won't forget what I did for love,
            What I did for love.

             Ano na nga ba nagawa ko para sa pag ibig na 'to? Wala akong maalala. I do feel in love for a perswon pero hindi ko alam kung kanino ba talaga.

            Eto na. Pataas na ng pataas. Girly pa naman ang voice ko. Gayang gaya si Lea Michele sa Glee.

            Gone,
            Love is never gone.
            As we travel on,
            Love's what we'll remember.

             Love's what we'll remember. Oo nga. Ang layo ko na sa Cebu pero ito parin ang problema ko. Sino ba talaga ang tunay na pag-ibig ko? Nalilito na ako. Peste naman kasi tong sakit na to.

            Kiss today goodbye,
            And point me t'ward tomorrow.
            We did what we had to do.
            Won't forget, can't regret
            What I did for love
            What I did for love

            Kalimutan ko nalang kaya? Give up na agad?

            I can feel tears falling down. Unahan pa nga sila eh. I can't help it. Sobrang emotions na ang napagdaanan ko. Na realese ko na finally. Kahit konti muna, okay na.

            What I did for love
            Love is never gone
            As we travel one
            Love's what we'll remember
           

            Feel the song.. Malapit na matapos. Bibirit ka na..

            Kiss today goodbye.
            And point me t'ward tomorrow.
            We did what we had to do.
            Won't forget, can't regret
            What I did for love.
            What I did for love.

            What I did for love...

            And after that high note, the audience gave me a standing ovation. Even the judges! I think I did well.


            "Whoa.. That was a very good performance! Job well done contestant number 4!"


            Ngiti lang ang isinagot ko sa compliment na yun. I proceeded backstage para makausap sila Sir at Dean.


            "What was that?! You changed song without asking us?!" bungad ni Sir


            "Uhmm I--I'm sorry Sir.." sabi ko ng nakayuko.


            "It's okay Sir... He did well naman.. I think na mas maganda yung kinanta niya kesa sa When You Believe.. Look.. Napatayo pa yung audiences even the judges!" sabi ni Dean. Halang masaya ang mokong.


            "Well, sabagay. You did well naman. Congratulations!" sabay shake hand nung dalawa sakin.

           
            Pumunta naman ako sa waiting room ng contestants. May anim pang kakanta. Matagal pa 'to.



            Kamusta na kaya siya?


            Okay lang kaya siya?


            Hindi niya ako masyadong pinapansin after nung umamin siya.. Lalo na nung after ng performance namin sa school...



            Ang cold na niya...



            "HOY! Lalim ng iniisip Baby Bro ah.." bigalng sumulpot si Kuya. Muntik pa kong matumba sa upuan.



            "Tae ka naman Kuya eh.. Gugulat pa talaga eh.." sabi ko naman sakanya sabay suntok ng mahina sa braso.



            "Oh kumain ka muna.. Matagal pa yun..." sabay abot sakin ni Ate ng chicken sandwich and float. Thank you sa sponsor, McDo!



            35 minutes passed.


           
            Nandito na ulit kami sa stage. Tae. Announcement of winner na. Actually, kanina pa. Nasa Champion nalang at First Runner-Up. wow. Miss U ang peg!



            Naiimagine ko yung moment ni Janine Tugonon tsaka ni Miss U.S.A na magkahawak ang kamay. Feeling ko, ako si Miss Philippines.. Ay wait. No. Si Miss U.S.A nalang.. Baka mag 1st Runner Up langa ko niyan pag si Philippines ang pinili ko.


            So ayan, feeling ko, naka gown ako na kulay red. With matching pusod ng buhok, readied for my crown.



            Dalawa nalang samin ang pinagpipilian. Yung kalaban ko, babae. She came from Bicol. Talented, huh?



            "Please step forward..." sabi nung poging emcee. I wonder what his name was.


            "First name to be announced will be the Champion.. Are you ready Kaliboooo!!!" sigaw nung emcee. Hiyawan naman yung mga uto-utong audience.



            "And the Champion.. *drum roll* *drum roll ulet* ...






            is contestant number... *punyeta, drum roll ulet..*




           
            contestant number 4! Mr. Brian Anthony Nicholls from Cebu!"



            EhrMehrGherd.






Author's Note
Yeah. Update na! Ayan na ha.. Medyo mabilis na xD Sorry for waiting. Ginanahan ako dun sa tatlong nag comment eh :D Comment and Enjoy :D

When A Gay Man Loves Part 15

Part Fifteen

Bryan

            Kasi naman. Hintayin daw ba ko kahit umuulan na? Pwede namang sumilong diba?! Ayan, nilalagnat tuloy!

            "Kuya Rodolfo, iwan mo muna kami... Pasabi kila Daddy nandito ako..." sabi ko kay Kuya nung nakarating na kami sa unit

            "Kasi naman... Bakit mo pa ko hinintay?" sabi ko kay Matthew kahit na alam kong natutulog siya

            "May usapan kasi tayo..." mahinang sabi niya

            "Never akong bumali ng isang usapan..." dugtong pa

            Powtcha. Wait lang ha? Kikiligin muna ako saglit.

            *Kilig*

            Ayan tapos na.

            "Kahit na... Pwede naman sa ibang araw diba? Okaya sumilong ka man lang sana... Suicidal ka eh!" sabi ko pa, without him knowing na kinikilig ako ng bongga!

            "Suicidal na kung suicidal, I'm ready to die for you... Kung nagkataon na umalis ako dun at dumating ka, baka magalit ka pa sakin, kaya mas okay na yung magkasakit ako kesa magalit ka sakin..." bongga. Say niyo? Haba ng hair devah!

            "Daeng sinasabi... Magbihis ka na nga lang..." sabi ko pa na kunwari naaasar

            "Di ko kaya..."

            "Ang laki mo na, di mo pa kaya magbihis?!"

            "Wag na nga... Di na ko magbibihis..." sabi nito sabay tumalikod pa sakin

            "Hay nako... Papasakit sakit tapos hindi naman pala kaya sarili..."

            At eto na nga. Uu, binihisan ko! Hoy, walang malisya 'to! Pareho kaya kaming lalake! Meron din ako nun ha! Wag nga kayong malaswa!

           

            Ehmeheghd. Neseken ne eng lehet...

            That, oh my GRRR, damn hot sexy body. He's mine.. Chos!

            "Ayan.. Matulog ka na... Mamaya uminom ka ulet ng gamot..."

            Tumayo muna ako para tumawag sa bahay...

            "San ka pupunta?"

            "Tatawag lang muna ako..."

            "Wag... Dito ka lang... Wag mo ko iwan..."

            "Anokaba... Tatawag lang!"

            "Dito ka nalang... Please..."

            Potcha. Kung di lang kita gusto eh...

            Ayan. Wala na. Nahuli na ko sa patibong niya. Haaayy..

            Wala na kong nagawa. Tinabihan ko nalang siya. Well, nakakaawa din naman kasi yun tao. Este bestfriend ko pala.

            Ewan ko ba. Oo, sinabi nila na bestfriend ko siya. I can feel it naman. Deep inside this heart of mine I do love him (parang kanta yata 'to?) Anyways highways. I can't remember. Peste naman kasi talaga 'tong amnesia na 'to. Sana magkaroon din ng amnesia yung sakit na amnesia. Gulo 'no? Gets niyo? Para baka sakaling makalimutan niya na kailangan niyang dumapo sa mga tao na may importanteng dapat gawin sa mundo. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH! Basta ganun. Bahala na kayong umintindi :D

            "I love you..." bigla siyang bumulong.

            "Wag mo na kong iiwan... Hindi ko kaya..." dugtong pa niya...

            "Hoy. Sinong kausap mo jan?" tanong ko. Pero hindi siya nagrespond.

            Sino naman kaya ang tinutukoy ng mokong na 'to? Ang swerte naman nung mahala niya.. Kaloka. Haayyy.. Kung ako nalang kasi eh!

            It was already, I think, 11:30 in the midnight. Hindi parin ako makatulog.  Hindi lang siguro ako sanay na may ibang kasama matulog? O baka dahil sakanya mismo? Ah ewan!

            Pano kaya kung hindi nalang ako nagka-amnesia? Masaya kaya ako ngayon?

            Masaya ka naman ah?

            Oo, masaya ako.. Pero, iba kaya yung saya ko kung hindi ako nagka-amnesia?

            Ewan.. Siguro...

            I was wondering kasi. May mga naiwan ako---

            Gaga! Hindi ka pa patay! Wala kang naiwan!

            IKR! What I'm saying is, naiwan.. May hindi natapos.. Decisions na hindi nagawa.. Actions na hindi naipakita... Words that I haven't expressed to someone yet.. Gets mo?

            Oo na.. Pero wala tayong magagawa... Nanjan na eh...

           

            Meron kay---

            "I love you Brian..." biglang bulong ni Matthew..

            "Wh.. What? Anong sabi mo?!" gosh. Kinikilig akez!!!!

           

            "I LOVE YOU BRIAN ANTHONY LACUNA NICHOLLS..." sabi niya in a louder voice. That effort. Partida, may sakit na yan. Nakapikit pa siya while uttering those words.

           

            "I love you too? Di ko alam." sabi ko na medyo confused. Actually, confused talaga.

           

            "Alam mo, hindi kita pinipilit o pipilitin na mag I love you sakin o kaya mahalin ako. Ayos na sakin yung malaman mo yung tunay na nararamdaman ko kahit na wala kang naaalala..."

           

            "Pe-- Pero baka masaktan lang kita. Mas maganda din kasi kung malalaman ko yung mga nangyari sa nakaraan."

            "You should learn how to wait. Dadating yung panahon na maaalala mo lahat.. Lahat-lahat..." sabi niya sabay yakap sakin

           

            "Pano kung maalala ko lahat ng yun kapag hindi mo na ako mahal? Sayang naman.." sabi ko

           

            "Posible yun... Pero imposible na hindi na kita mamahalin..." eto na. Nagba-blush na...

           

            "Mag-kwento ka nga.. Yung tungkol sa mga nangyari dati..."

            "Are you sure? Baka mamaya sumakit nanaman yang ulo mo?"

            "No... Hindi yan.. Basta magkwento ka.."

           

            "Okay..."

           

            "First year college tayo. We met each other kasi magka-klase tayo. Taking up Education. First day palang, medyo naging close na tayo... Nag-agawan pa nga tayo sa Hany noon sa Cafeteria.. Ayun. Sakin parin napunta yung isang pirasong Hany..."

            Ayan. Sumasakit na ulo ko. Hindi niya dapat mahalata!

            "Dun nagstart yung pagkakaibigan natin. I asked you for your number. Nagulat ka pa nga nun tapos sinabihan mo ko na Poging Kabayo ba yun? Basta ganun. It was very funny. Epic pa nga yung mukha mo..."

            Gosh. Ang gwapo niya..

            "Madami na tayong nagawa... Oy wait, bawal green minded. Hindi kasama yun..."

            "I know! Defensive ka agad!" sayang. Wala palang nangyari samin. CHOS!

            "Anyways, ayun. We always go out every Fridays and weekends. Kasama tropa. Minsan, tayong dalawa lang.."

            "Then one day, nakilala mo si Edward..."

            "Who was he?" I can't remember that guy..

            "Eto na nga. Ikekwento ko.."

            "Pauwi tayo nun. I felt a little--- little---"

            "Little?" tanong ko. Ayaw niya ituloy eh!

            "Okay fine. It wasn't that little. Selos. Selos na selos na selos talaga ako. Kasi naman. Imagine, first time palang kayong nagkakilala, close na agad kayo?! That day na nakilala mo siya, pauwi tayo, sabay. Then he came, introduced himself, and ayun! Kayo na magkasama! Tapos may rumors pa nga nun na kumalat. Nag'date' kayo sa mall. Pero hindi pala siya tsismis. Totoo yun. Nakita kasi kayo ng Journalists ng school natin. Edward asked you out pa nga kung pwedeng manligaw sayo, in public, doon mismo sa food court."

            "Ang sakit grabe... Sobrang sakit nung nalaman ko yun.. Nagkaroon ako ng karibal. Nahati na yung oras mo between the two of us."

            "Madami. Madami na tayong pinagsamahan. Anything that you can imagine, nagawa na natin. Except with the sex thing. Walang ganunan."

            "Eto yun last na nangyari before you lost your memory..."

            "Galing kasi tayo sa party noon... Sa bahay yun ni Edward ginanap. Nagkasiyahan lang tayong magkaka-klase after ng Basketball Game kaya ayun, niyaya tayo ni Edward sa bahay nila para kumain at uminom..."

            "Sumasayaw tayo nun... I asked you kung doon ba tayo matutulog sa bahay nila or what. Sabi mo, hahanapin mo muna si Edward para magpaalam o sabihin na doon nga tayo matutulog..."

            Wait. Teka lang.. Ang sakit na talaga.

            "You kept on searching for Edward... Sa dancefloor, sala, banyo, dining, labas, garden, until you saw their maid in the kitchen. Tinanong mo si Manang, sinabi nung yaya na umakyat ka nalang sa kwarto ni Edward... Third room from your right..."

            "Pero sa halip na makapagpaalam ka, hindi mo na nagawa...."

            "Then what happened? Ano ba nakita ko?" tanong ko. Nakaka-curious na kase! Climax na eh!

            "Dinikit mo yung tenga mo sa pinto ni Edward... Para kasing may kakaiba..."

            "Dahil sa na-curious ka noon, binuksan mo ng konti yung pinto. Siguro about an inch or two... Tamang tama naman na pagkasilip nung mata mo, kama agad ni Edward yung nakita mo..."

            Ang sakit na talaga.

            "Then?" I still asked him

            "Okay ka lang ba?"

            "I'm fine.. tuloy mo lang kwento mo.."

            "You saw Edward and Bianca having sex.."

            "Ayoko na Matt.. Ang sakit na ng ulo ko.. Matulog na tayo..."

            "Sige... Ikaw bahala.."

            That Bianca.. Ang dami niya nang atraso sakin.. Bibingo na..

            Then natulog na nga kami. Those stories that Matthew told remained in my mind.

            That morning, umuwi na agad kami. When I reached home, kinuwento ko lahat lahat ng kinuwento sakin ni Matthew last night. Pati yung pagsakit ng ulo ko.

            "Ano? May naalala ka na ba?" tanong ni Mommy

            "Wala pa nga po eh.." sabi ko..

            "O sige.. Pumasok ka na.. You're running late for school.. Kuya Rodolfo! Paki hatid na si Brian!"

Matthew

      

       "Ano sabi tol?" tanong ni Crix nung nagkita kami after ko manggaling kila Brian.

            "Badtrip tol.."

           

            "Oh bakit? Ano ba sabi?"

            "Ganito kasi.. Recently, lagi na sumasakit ulo ni Brian.. He always complain for that. Na open-up niya din kila Tita. Ayun. Kinausap ako nila Tita kanina. Sinabi niya na medyo dumistansya muna ako kay Brian kasi hindi maiiwasan na mapagusapan namin yung nakaraan.. LALO lang daw nasasaktan si Brian eh.." pag-explain ko sakanya "Let's just wait for his memories to come back nalang daw."

            "Eh diba gusto nilang ma-regain ang memory ni Brian?"

            "Ayun nga eh.. They do want, pero we have to wait for the perfect time DAW. Dadating at dadating naman DAW jan.."

            "Eh pano kung hindi na ma-regain ni Brian yung memory niya?"

            "That's what I'm fighting for.. Pero they don't listen..."

            "Anong plano mo niyan?"

            "Distance?"

            "Are yous sure? Distance eh nasa iisang school tayo.."

            "Kung gusto, maraming paraan.."

            "Oo na.. Pero pano yan kung tuluyan kang mabaon sa limot?"

            "Ayos na yun.. Basta malaman niya lang na mahal ko parin siya.."

            "Hanep ka tol! Ay wait.. Ito pala.." sabay abot niya sakin ng isang dark blue envelope

            "Birthday ko na sa Saturday ha.. Pumunta ka.." binuksan ko yung letter

            "Seriously? Kelangan naka-Cosplay?" ang weird naman kasi. Ang tanda tanda niya na may pacosplay-cosplay pang nalalaman!

            "Tol, seryoso yan. Eh di sana hindi ko na nilagay..."

            "Well may point ka.."

            "Sige.. See you later.."

            "WAIT! Kasama si Brian dito?"

            "Of course!"

           

            "Di na ko sasama!"

            "Pag di ka sumama, papatayin kita.. Magkakalimutan na tayo..."

            "Ehhhhhhhh.. Kasi naman eh..."

            "Kung gusto, maraming paraan... Ikaw may sabi niyan.. Sige na.." sabay takbo papunta sa next class niya..

           

            Fuck. Pano ko gagawin yung distance na yan?!

            Okay. Next Class. Literature.

           

            "So class.. We will be having a Recitation for this week. It's not that ordinary recitation that you would think of. Something different.. Uhm, Ms. Secretary of the Class, how many are absent?" dirediretsong sabi nung Prof namin na beki.

           

            "Brian Nicholls was absent today.." sabay upo nung secretary namin

            "Tatawagin ko kayo isa isa para makabunot ng gagawin niyo for the recital.. Uhm, wait. Meron pala dito. Duet siya. Kung sino man makabunot nun, automatically, si Mr. Nicholls na ang partner niya.. Yun lang. Let's start!"

            At ayun na. Nag start na siya. May mga rolled small pieces of paper dun sa parang fishbowl na hawak ni Sir..

            "Uhh.. Tae naman tong si Sir.. 10 Quotations or Famous Lines of Julius Caeser. Bullshit.." sabi sakin ni Tophie. Seatmate ko.

            "Kaya mo yan.. Ikaw pa." sabi ko sakanya.

            "Okay Mr. Buenaventura! Next!" sigaw nung Prof ko. Pumunta na ko palapit sa kanya..  

            Please.. Duet.. Sana yung Duet..

            "Next! Ms. Dagli!" saby punta nung isa kong blockmate na babae.

           

            "Shit!" lumipaaaaad!

            "O.M.G.R.R.R!!!" lumipad din yung kay Lovely, yung kasunod ko. At sa iisang direction pa napunta yung amin..

            "Gosh.. Lumipad din yung iyo!?" tanong niya sakin

            "Oo eh.."

            "Ayun!"

            Ayun nga. Nakita namin agad. Pero teka?! Alin dito!?

            "Yung naka-roll yung akin.." sabi ni Lovely

            "Unchained Melody (Duet)" oh.my.gawd.

            "Okay class! Everyone please sit down!" sabi nung Prof namin. Gawd. Nasakin yung duet!

            "Who got the duet?" tanong ni Prof

            "Si Matthew po!" sigaw ni Tophie

            "You and Mr. Nicholls will be singing Unchained Melody.. Okay. That will be for today. Goodbye class.."

Edward

                   Back to normal. Walang naaalala si Matthew. Pero nakokonsensya parin talaga ako sa nagawa ko sa kanya. I do really love him.. Hindi ko talaga alam kung bakit may nangyari samin ni Dianne that night. I do really love him so much..

            "Brian.." kinausap ko siya minsan

           

            "Uh, bakit po?"

            "I'm Edward.."

            "Hindi po kita kilala.."

            "Kaya nga nakikipagkilala ulit ako.."

            "Ulit?"

            "Oo, ulit. Isa ako sa mga nakalimutan mo.."

            "So.. Ikaw pala si Edward na kinukwento sakin nila Matthew.."

           

            "Oo, ako nga. Pwede parin ba kitang ligawan?" tae. Pakapalan na ng mukha 'to.

            "Sure.. Sabi nga nila.. Nililigawan mo ako dati.."

            "Oo.. Thank you!" sabay hug sakanya. Damn. Buti nalang hindi niya naaalala..

            We'll start all over again, Brian...

Author's Note

Yeah. Super Ultra Mega Duper OA Late update. After asdgfhdgj years.. Eto na.. Nyehe. Few chapters away to the end. Hayyy.. Enjoy. Comment po ha?